“I was depressed, scared, alone, and I didn’t want anyone to know.”
In 2019, my marriage blew up leaving me feeling betrayed, devastated, and scared of losing everything. Then the pandemic hit. I couldn’t find a counselor and I didn’t want my friends to know about what was going on. I was depressed, scared, and alone.
I came to the first service Mosaic held post-pandemic because there were a lot of dark thoughts in my head and I needed help. After 3 or 4 months of being anonymous, a sermon about pain left me feeling ready to ask for help.
I joined a men’s group and I shared my story for the first time. The men gathered around me and prayed for me. It was the community that I needed.
During the Blood Stained Pews Journey, we were asked to share a time we were wronged. We were asked a question that knocked the wind out of me, ‘how long are you going to be the victim?’ I decided then that I was done being a victim—I was going to step up.
I made the decision to get baptized and live my life fully for him.
We set the date for March 27th—a day I was dreading—my wedding anniversary. It was like Jesus was saying to me, ‘I’m gonna make this a good thing.’ After I was baptized I was able to forgive the people who hurt me and show them the same grace I was shown.